pissy mood

i have been in a bad mood for a couple of days and it is really getting to me. i dont know if its the fact that i have had awnry children who did not feel well, of who did not listen or all the above. i was bathing emmett last night and the kids thought it was funny to get into my bucket of flower. took me forver to clean it up. i dont know if its because i am a women this week or because of the heat. i dont know if its because i had a great weekend with my family and now there all gone and i am alone. i just dont know but this is bugging me. i hate being awnry with my kids and hubby. i hate feeling alone.. i hate the fact that we are still struggling and i feel like corey will never graduate and that we will never have money. i just wish all this would solve itself and i know that it wont. why cant life just be easy. so many that i see seem to have it easy. i know that some dont but some seem to and it just sucks. why cant i have it easy sometimes. why? why ? why? ok.. i need a drink (dr.pepper of course)...i hate being negitive. sorry world u got the brunt of it today...A-